oh well

life has beeeeen so unreal and crazy the past month. i was a bridesmaid in a wedding, had my 21st birthday, sent my bestfriend /brother on a mission, got an internship, started school, participated in formal recruitment XO, and started to teach 70+ girls songfest. the next few weeks will be even more cray. with mb's wedding next week, songfest the week after, and con flying to mada. all of that right when school is at its craziest, kumon needs me to survive, and i have ASUU emailing me every 20 seconds. GAH. oh well these times make for the BEST memories. <3

as a new twenty one year old, i look back on my life and i can definitely say i have a lot of 'oh well' moments.... moments like...going on a horribly awkward blind date, kissing someone for one night only, or a friendship cut short. many of these experiences can be looked at as a waste of time, but i see them as opportunities to learn.  each of these 'oh well' moments has taught me more and more of what i really want in life. those nursing pre reqs i took as a freshman taught me that i don't want to be a nurse. and there is nothing wrong with that. with finding out that i don't like something.

i think in life we often look at others and how their lives seem to be so in order, and feel ours is falling apart. nothing seems to be working. your twenty hour a week job sucks, your not sure about what your going to be in life,  and that last date was just soo not right. something must be wrong with you.

we need to see it in a way that we are soo lucky to have found this out about ourselves at 18 or 21 instead of at 35 or 42. aren't we glad we went on the awkward blind date to realize that we hate movie first dates (never again). or that one night make out sesh? had fun didn't you? so what if it didn't go anywhere! or the friendship that lasted only a month? amazing memories that will last.  the two semesters i spent working on my nursing pre reqs but then switched my major, now i know what i want to do for a career instead of what i think i want. the way i see it life happens the way it is suppose to.  each time a door closes a new one opens and maybe that is where you are meant to stay but if not, take what you learn from that door and go to another one.

anyways what i am trying to say is that i am so grateful i have a life full of 'oh well' moments, instead of a life full of 'what if's'. 

"i have not failed, i just found 10,000 ways that will not work"
-thomas edison


~high lights from these past few weeks~

quick photo on the drive down... me crying

see ya in 2 <3

front page of the tribune: UTAH MAN 

PC:11 chapter pride day 

my BEAUT fam

MB and i in the recruitment vid

shupe and i on pref night

noelle and i in an owl: bid day 2014

GO CHIO

flawless julez and i bid day 2014

be

I think I could use a little meant to be right about now.

Want

what do i want?
in a career? in a friendship? in love? in life?
my mind spins at just this thought,
in my life i have always tried to do what was right,
and with the few exceptions i have,
where does that lead me though,
i am sitting here wondering what is the right thing to want.
in a career,
 something beneficial.
inspiring, exciting, worthwhile.
in a friendship,
kindness, caring, understanding, interested (in me), trusting,
in love,
the one, the hard parts, the good parts, i  want it.
life,
to wake everyday with all intentions of being happy.
because life is too short to not be.

5/26/14

poetry.

i love this description. i think it describes the way i feel and act perfectly. thank you meghan for creating this magic.

Standards

I have been told that I have unrealistic standards
Because I want a man with strong hands and a soft heart
Not a boy with sticky fingers and a hidden agenda
Because I want Friday nights cuddled in 500 thread count
Not a snow sprinkled night club teetering in stilettos
Because I want shy smiles lurking behind oversized mugs
Not sloppy winks and wet tongues with strangers on dance floors
Because I want a singular perfect sunflower
Not a dozen store bought red roses
Because I want the first edition of my favorite novel
Not a little blue box
Because I want sunday morning farmers markets and bed hair
Not Starbucks with my name missing the ‘h’
Because I want butterflies
Not liquid courage
Because I want it to be “us”
Not “me” and not “him”
Not “Allie” and not “Noah”
Not “Jack” and not “Rose”
The first and last perfect love story of just us
And maybe I’ll have to wait patiently at the train station
Let summer come fall, and back around again
Maybe until my eyes crinkle and my heart’s worse for wear
But the day will come when he steps off that platform 
And my baby blues meet his ambiguous gaze 
Coat in tow, bag in hand, heart sewn on the wrist of his button up
Grinning ear to year
Because standards exist to be met
To be exceeded
-meghan rienks

me

I am me. I love to be in my own world. I love to get dirty, but I also love to get pretty.  Bugs don’t bug me unless they are on me with out my knowing. I love to be alone but I am also terrified of it. I love the sun and summer and anything warm. I love weather; I like knowing that I am not in control of it, that anything can happen. I’ll only go on a hike if the company is good. I love to learn and act mature, and only sometimes do I not.  I love to give advice, but sometimes I feel like I need it myself.  My favorite thing it the world is to laugh.  I love to laugh so hard that I cry. I love people that can have a good conversation, people that make me super comfortable, people that take the edge off, people that ask great questions and can be silly about it., people that understand my sarcastic jokes. I love crazy romantic movies, movies that make me cry, movies that make me laugh I love them. I love to dream about things that I know wont ever happen, but dreaming about them is almost as good. I love animals, especially my little puppy.  Stories that are inspiring are my favorite. I love food that makes me feel good. I love make up and body products. Anything that makes me feel beautiful. I love the when i smell the blossoms on the trees in the spring, the hot of the summer, the color changing of the leaves in the autumn, and the first snow of the winter. I love that my name is different because it makes me different. I love that my name is always underlined in red. I love being spontaneous. I love sweats and I love dresses. I love to write down my feelings, and to be truly honest on the page.  I love to be healthy and to sweat out all of the toxins in my body. I love to pamper myself; a bath is my best friend. I love details.  To put in the extra details to make your food, your room, your life more beautiful, is my favorite.  I love fancy drinks, even though I don’t drink, to watch someone put in so much effort to mix a drink is fascinating, I need a virgin super cocktail. I love to be interesting, and to have exciting things happen in my life. I love my beliefs, they make my life so much more relaxing and fun. I am excited to find the “one” but I am not looking, he’ll come around when it’s the right time. I need someone who is very confident, funny, serious, caring, strong (mentally), sassy, and just fun. Those are dreams but for now I am happy with where I am.  I am ryann cooley, and I am me.

grass

someone once told me the grass was much greener 

on the other side 

well i paid a visit 

and it's possible i missed it

it seemed different yet exactly the same. 

till further notice 

i'm in between 

from where i'm standing

my grass is green

-macy gray

be happy now!!!!!!! what are you waiting for, nothing will make you happier then yourself. my grass is GREEN💚

freedom

my horoscope for this year tells me that i need to be more free. not that I rely completely on my horoscope, but i do read in to them haha. so freedom here I come. this semester im going to be less restrictive. 

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!

2014 here you are and here are my resolutions:

   New Years Resolutions

• gym 3 times per week

• comfort food once a week only

• LOTS OF WATER

• More showers haha

• stay organized & clean

•keep current on school stuff

•stop the gossip-say 5 nice things for every bad thing said.... even if it's in your mind 

•take less of what others say about myself to heart.

•embrace the good things and document as much as possible-i want to remember these things

•be a more positive person

•be less of an introvert-once a month 

We rang in the new year and noelles cabin and had a blast :)

Xoxo

ok

sometimes you feel like the reason things are not going your way is because you are doing the wrong thing or that there is something wrong with you. when in fact your doing the right things and you try to assure yourself that you are normal and that nothing is wrong with you. anyways right now im just trying to assure myself that im okay.